The Power of Integrity

It has been a while since I have posted and that is due mostly to the fact that I have had little to post about. My life has been so chaotic lately and on top of that I have also been going through a very low time in my life. By "low time" I mean experiencing a distancing from God. Just like most, it is easier to keep busy than it is to acknowledge the fact that with each step I take, I get farther away from God. It's not that I'm giving up on God or being a Christian; it's just that I get distracted from Him with temporal things and before I know it, I am no longer by His side. Sometimes it just seems so hard to love Him. I'm just so tired and even though I know that I need Him, it's just easier to not put anything into the relationship. Then I deal with this self-guilt because I know I should be spending time with Him, but instead I find other things to do. Every fiber of my being cries out to live a life of integrity, and all I see is this mask that I am wearing. God knows what's going on; I know what's going on; but everyone else sees this happy guy who has it together.

I originally started out to post about the ingethrity of Audio A and Pokect Full of Rocks, and for some reason I just felt compelled to share what is on my heart. I know that this post may come as a surprise to some of you, especially my wife. There are times I wish that I could change the way God made me; I wish that God had created me to feel more, to experience emotions more, but I know that I have to come to grips with the way that God created me. It may be harder for me to feel God's love but I know that it isn't impossible. It's hard for me to ask for help, especially when it comes to my personal life, but if God puts it on your heart to pray for me, please do. My heart's desire is to live a life of integrity and to never leave the side of Jesus. Thank you for giving me an opportunity to bare my heart. Someday, I hope that it is said of me that, "there was a man who walked so close to God that whenevre they saw him, they saw Jesus."

Well, What Do You Know...

I have been trying to come up with an ingenious way to share this, and I figure that a picture says a thousand words, so here it is...

Finally!!! My very own mini-me. If you want more details, head over to my wife's website to get the dirt on the new addition to our family.